real good movie.

I miss skating.
And friends.

Why can't we have all migrated to cali?

Now it's just me, and a lot of confusion and emotion.

And friends that come and go. never staying long enough.

and then, alone again.

i think i'll just play and replay "on the road again" to try to comfort my travel lust. but it'll only make it worse. much worse.

with paint pens and no ideas.

being lonely.

eating banana pancakes

in a good way. washington was so good, spending time with friends.

dan's company was so fulfilling. I'm really sad that she's gone. on a greyhound, the worst place to leave a loved one. :(

so much to say i don't even know where to begin. so i wont.

just good company, good food, good/ridiculous asshole waves... bodyboarding, so fun.

my day off. birthday in 2 days. I'm so depressed :(

no growing old for me. :(

EUUUUUUUUUUUHHHHHHHHHHHHHH>

UHHH, the past few days have been so insane. trying to get everything done with work and house and still skate and eat... ah.
in the mornings i've been eating blueberries in blueberry/pomegranate juice. and it gets like a slushi. so good.
two meetings today.AH!
no no no no no. so much to do before them. probably wont happen.
last night i had a really funny dream about a resident here calling and being really unclear (my most dreaded calls) and then asking me to come over and fold her laundry..

Days are cold and grey
it's hard to be away
but i guess that's what i meant when i said "i do"
and you said it too
i can't get used to this no matter how hard i try
but if it goes on too much longer
i'll probably die

just because i've been away so long
and just because i'm not that strong
just because a pretty woman turns me on
doesn't mean i'm gonna be a fool
and give up what i got with you

i miss your laughing lips
i miss your eyes and hips
do you miss me?
'cause i miss you.

i been away so long
right or wrong
sometimes i can't even sing a song
i'm comin' there
i'm just about gone
i'm gonna love you all night long

in a week or two
i'm coming home to you
and when i get back there's a lot of things
a lot of things we're gonna do

just because i've been away so long
and just because i'm not that strong
just because a pretty woman turns me on
doesn't mean i'm gonna be a fool
and give up what i got with you

i miss your laughing lips
i miss your eyes and hips
do you miss me?
'cause i miss you.

I'm coming home! see you soon, weirdos!

Don't haaaatee?!\\\

ohmanohmanohman.

it's like this.

people on drugs say the most interesting things.

GIRLLLLLLLSSSSSSSSSS. get back here!

don' worry li'l hunnies. imma be there to give you some good good lovin'. real soon. dan, hurry your buns up. can't wait to molest.

i'm going to be pissed if i lose my job because of my age. people are always asking me how old i am and being so surprised when they find that a teenager is in charge of their property. HA. too bad. jeez.
all that means as far as i'm concerned is they now have someone naive and passionate about people enough to spend all of my time and energy on keeping them happy.

uhghhh.

can't wait til work is over. can't wait to skate. i have plenty to do before i go. better get started. laundry! why do i love doing laundry?

so fun.
I've been skating almost every day for the past week. it's been SO long since i've skated and enjoyed. ahhhhhhhhhhhh. i love it.
landed some nollies and nollie180s and almost a few nollie bigspins over the gnar pyramid corner.
some pros were rippin'. park was crowded. some dude with crazy pop was there. doin' crazy poppy tricks over said pyramid and acting cocky.

lovin' life, have enough to pay the bills...this month. ha. uh oh.
can't complain.

lotta work to do.. but it's good.

almost 20 when I first started saying "i love you" to my family.
but now is the best time, because i mean it more than i ever could.
and i hopefully still have plenty of time to say it and show it.

wednesday was one of my worst days ever thus far. today was one of the most amazing.
work today has been perfect.
got a lot done. had iranian style tea with some new friends. (SO good!) and besides that sweet gesture, they gave me a present! - a bottle of wine and goodies from the rocky mountain chocolate factory!!! and they don't even know that's my FAVORITE place for sweets! also, like...allll the amazing people that live here came by today and were sweeties to me. i even got a 'thank you so much, lizzie!' yelled from the top floor balcony!

my boss was here for a few hours this morning, which, believe it or not, made things go VERY smooth. I like having him around once in a while, wish he'd come by more often.

ONE WEEEEEEK!
'nough said!

my nick names lately have been:
iranian lady - lovely (my personal favorite)
her husband - sweetheart
pokez waitress - sweetie
pokez waiter - darling
OB skater - ripper
bear - LB

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Work was so terrible today. Like, the worst ever.

long story short, i was told to tow vehicles, some with NO warning or notification whatsoever, and then deal with all the pissed off residents, one of whom stormed into my fucking house and tried to bitch me out.

anyways. i can't remember ever feeling this shitty, although i'm sure i have before.

i cried on the phone with my dad for 45 minutes. thank God for that, or I'd probably still be a total wreck.

NOT looking forward tomorrow.

skateboarding also made things much better.

It's Saturday, I'm working, doing laundry, cleanup crew. oh man.

I get to see Lindsey and Jordan tonight or tomorrow. I'm super excited about this. Family time!!!

The bourne ultimatum was bomb! I'm probably going to like...marry him.

Life has been just amazing.

I could die and it would be alright.

I want to paint my place, but i've been scarred ever since we tried painting my bremerton basement house and it looked...well... like a bunch of teenage amateurs did it. brem paint crew!
:(

someone tried breaking into my place the other night. FREAKY. my door barely works now.
shudders*

I'm buying a baseball bat. or mace.

it's good that laundry day makes me happy. I'm still kind of a kid.